Tuesday, March 26, 2013

Displacement of a Familiar Ordeal


The age of technology, interesting is it not? A culture consumed by the drive of keyboards and internet access, instant connections with a dozen different social sites to connect with from the simplest forms of teenage interests to the highest forms of educational discussion. This constant display of social morphing and forging turns even the most recluse scared individuals to kings and queens of their own virtual domain in whatever area of interest they desire to pursue. The day is the 23, the month June of the year 2007 in a small town just outside of Charleston, Mississippi.
                Within this town there exists a small high school. This school holds no special purpose or significant value aside from the typical use of casually moving the semi steady flow of new displaced and uncertain teenage minds of the city through the uncomfortable social shift of elementary hand held education to the oh so dramatic shift of high school persuaded mental puberty. A swarm of nervous and yet excited faces preparing to initiate into this new environment with hopes of being the smartest or most popular or strongest, fastest athletes before they leave the doors of their new established domains. Or contrary, there is the select few who proud and secluded in their own worth as human beings of both scholastic hunters and athletic achievers that deviate from the swarm of social absorption to meander towards their own goals of excellence, tossing aside the affections and admiration of those eyes of curiosity, people much like Cindy Trendolar. A young woman, not from the expected heritage of rich wealthy debutants weaved into intellectual workings of finances or medicine or any of those careers one would expect to breed such finesse as she possessed, but from a family of poor origins and insignificant careers in ordinary positions placed systematically around town. Simple but modest careers that even the most wealthy need, such as gas stations or grocery store clerks; careers that although simple propelled Cindy forward with an unmatched ethic of work and modesty. This code of morals did however leave this girl lacking in interest towards any “normal” passion of the a-typical 2000’s generation high school urchins. Texting and internet, dating and parading around town in a simplistic lame show of “rebellion” alluded this unique species of teenage girl’s understanding, and thus she spent the majority of her time secluded talking only to her sister which she valued as her closest and only friends.
                On the opposite side of seclusion stood Pete randerforst, this young individual entered this normally unsure environment with an air of destructive self confidence that later many would recognize to be his greatest fault. Now Pete’s agenda fell towards the idea that he should enter as king of the land known as the hallways of his high school and it showed. The boy, being of natural physical build, would strut around with head held high, trying with the entirety of his physical form and drive to sway the attention of all female counter parts he could find. Quickly he joined as many sports teams as energy would allow in attempt to elevate his status amongst his group of easily influenced peers. As he wished it, so it was. Pete soon was known as the smooth talking jock, quick to rouse and sway young hearts and minds to his side and into his “area” of interest. Though his reputation had come swiftly and fulfilled his goals he soon came across one frustration he could not cope with against all mental will.
                One day in a most ordinary and usual setting within the brightly lit, yet cavernous walls of the hall, Pete stood shoulder to the faded metal locker with the small dent where he routinely threw his weight in a display of masculinity firmly believed to (within his own mind) be enforcing his “cool guy” image. Talking of his short lived accomplishments in his created world of excellence within the normal collection of worshipers, Pete then saw Cindy. He viewed this young girl as nothing more than another lust driven vessel within which he could achieve his own teenage accounting of worth at. He then became determined at that moment to sway this confident looking seductress over with the usual flashing of muscular definition and quick speaking. Then the unspeakable occurred, this prey once though part of a simple design of cat and mouse rejected Pete leaving the embarrassed and now mentally reduce boy standing shocked amidst a group of uncertain and weary eyes. Immediately the snickers and mummers of disapproval stripped away the barrier of confidence around Pete seeping into the very essence of manhood he had tried so hard to build for himself. Within a moment of blind rejection and lust for this creature, he then realized he could not have, but desired so greatly over took him at which point he began to chase the girl. Realizing her new complication Cindy then sprinted towards her old 82 Caviler. With haste she entered through the rusted metal doors of her sanctuary quickly enacting the four cylinders of the vehicle into motion. Pete, upon seeing this then ran to his parent purchased dodge viper knowing he would need to quickly begin his pursuit if he was to avoid losing her in the back streets of his home town.
                Pete quickly accelerated to speeds well above the local speed limits in his blinded lustful scramble. Filling the gap of road between him and his soon to be woman of passion, the boy in his mental haze then began to swerve in violent attempt to coax Cindy into submission as if to suggest harm if she refused to end the pursuit. A weak of willed being might have then pulled to the side and allowed the incoming intrusion of self-protection, but Cindy was no being of average will. Thus, the chase lead deep into the woods. As wheels shook, rattled by gravel and faulted unmaintained road way, familiar terrain soon turned to unsure swift eye movements towards an unfamiliar landscape. Finally, when she felt she might be close to shaking Pete off of her dust ridden trail, viewing the distance of his vehicle in the small image on her mirror; a terrible miscalculation of distance forged itself in the form of a swift curve in the road slanted into a quick drop some hundred feet down to the twisted bank of a woodland river. The drop would be the end of this reclusive brilliant and athletic human beings mortal existence in the small town which she had been raised. A tragedy, one spoken of for years by all the local residents, and one that would forever destroy the happiness and reputation of the once clouded mind of Pete thusly had come to conclusion.
                 It would not be till years later that Pete now grown and sheltered within his own created shell of sorrow and seclusion would return to ill-fated bank of his teen love’s grave. Crouching to the cross in his tattered jeans and torn loose fitted sweatshirt, Pete allowed the years of repression to explode from his body in the form of tears falling to the slow current of the river. After a few moments he recovered his baring and glanced again towards the cross. He then noticed the small black case holding his love’s most valued possession. The small carved flute that her sisters had crafted for her on the occasion of some birthday now forgotten in the sorrows of her death. Pete lifted this delicate piece and held it to his lips. Once more tears of pain fell from his eyes now falling lightly over the curves and openings of the instrument. Breathing in deeply, he then exhaled a sigh, upon which the device uttered a soft note; a note that would resonate with him in memory and soul many years past its occurrence as sign of beauty and excellence that stood for the mistakes of obsession that had so cold ended the wonderful pattern of life that he had never truly grasped before.    

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